Contrary to what you may have previously thought, you have not one but five distinct bodies: a Mental Body, a Physical Body, an Emotional Body, an Energetic Body, and an Archetypal Body. Each body requires its own foods, experiences its own ecstasies, and endures its own pains.

For this experiment, invite a partner to join you for two weeks of daily 5 Body check-ins. (If you do not can find a partner in the Possibility Creation Village or the EHP Collaboration group.) Each day, either in person or over the phone or Zoom, meet with your partner for twenty minutes, and one at a time, share what is happening in each of your bodies at that moment. Share about what your bodies need, the ecstasies and pain in each of your bodies, and notice when one body is attempting to do the work of another body.

For instance:

• I notice that my Archetypal Body is well-fed by the writing projects I got to work on today. Saying this aloud brings enormous joy into my Emotional Body because I love my work, and sadness because it took me so long to discover this work. My Mental Body is already thinking about how I might structure a piece of writing I am working on for this evening. In my Physical Body, I notice tension in my lower back from sitting all day. I will stretch later and go on a walk. And when I sense into my Energetic Body, I notice that I have been moving very quickly today. I want to have spaciousness in my calendar and to move more slowly.

Now, and for the rest of your life, when someone asks you what you are feeling, you have just four options: Mad, sad, glad, and scared.

For this experiment, invite a partner to join you for two weeks of daily 4 Feelings check-ins. (If you do not can find a partner in the Possibility Creation Village or the EHP Collaboration group.) Each day for twenty minutes, meet in person or over the phone or on Zoom, and one at a time share the feelings that are present for you in real-time. For instance:

• I feel glad that we are doing these daily feelings check-ins. I feel glad now coming into this space with you. I also feel sadness, because I have wanted to be in connection sharing about feelings for a long time, and now it is happening. Now I notice fear. I feel afraid because I do not always know what I am feeling. I feel afraid I might do this feelings check-in wrong. And I feel angry because I still have it as a possibility that I could do something like a feelings check-in 'wrong.'

Either with one partner or several partners, complete a week of daily conscious feelings practice using the Map of How to Consciously Feel from page 113 in Directing the Power of Conscious Feelings. If you do not have Directing the Power of Conscious Feelings, follow the steps below:

1. This is a partner practice, not to be done alone. If you are a man, speak with an adult man. If you are a woman, speak with an adult woman. 
2. Each session has two halves. In the first half do the exercise in one direction, then switch roles. You each play both parts. This avoids the client/therapist ("I'm broken, fix me.") dynamic. Neither of you is broken. You are doing experiments to expand your Box!
3. Prearrange a place in person or online where you and your partner can meet and make noise without being disturbed. Feelings can be loud.
4. Bring a sturdy hand towel and tissues. The towel can be wrung between your hands for rage work. You know what the tissues are for.
5. Sit facing each other in straight-back chairs with no table between. (Sitting on the floor tends to compress the chest and block feelings.)
6. One person goes first: The feeler. The other person is the coach. The coach's job is to listen.
7. The coach says, "Close your eyes and trust your feelings. Let your feelings lead." In a safe space it only takes a few seconds before the first manifestation of a feeling shows up, such as swallowing, fidgeting fingers, a tapping foot. The coach simply says, "Let the feeling get bigger."
8. Do not worry if nothing seems to happen for the first few meetings, or if a feeling only gets to 5 percent intensity. A new kind of trust is being developed. The work goes in steps and layers. Trust the process.
9. Even if joy, fear, or sadness appear to be the topmost feelings, I suggest you work with anger first. When you have your anger back, then you can use your anger to assure your own safety while exploring other feelings.
10. The coach's job is to:
    1. Ask to hear the story behind the feelings. Say, "Then what happened?"
    2. Repeat back what the feeler says to complete the communication.
    3. Encourage the feeler to stay out of their head and instead say, "I feel mad/sad/scared/glad because..."
    4. Coach the feeler to unmix their feelings.
    5. Coach the feeler to gauge the intensity of their feelings (1 - 100 percent).
    6. At the climax point, ask "What did you decide?" Write down any decisions.
11. At the halfway point, change roles and start over.
12. Spend a few minutes at the end of each session sharing observations, having a glass of water, and closing the space together.

After exploring the first experiments on this website, it becomes useful to recognize that there is a distinction between Feelings and Emotions. Although the experience of the Feelings of anger, sadness, fear, and joy is similar to the experience of the Emotions of anger, sadness, fear, and joy, the difference is actually immense. Feelings arise in the present moment, last for fewer than three minutes, and provide energy and information for action here and now. Emotions, on the other hand, are incomplete feelings from the past. They last for longer than three minutes, and even when you use the energy and information of the Emotion to handle things in the present, the Emotion does not go away. That is because the Emotion is not about what is happening. It is about something that happened in the past. It is not for handling things in the present. Rather, it for healing things from the past.

Start this experiment by creating a page at the back of your Beep! Book titled 'My Next Emotional Healing Processes.' Then, for the next three days, become an Emotion hunter. Any time you notice an emotional experience, write one or two lines about it. For instance:

• Received feedback. Feel sad and angry and have a story that I can never get it right.
• Felt scared to share in the new group. Scared that if I spoke, someone would cut me off, so I stayed quiet.
• My husband interrupted me. Wanted to curl in a ball in hide. Story that no one ever listens.

The list of EHPs that you wrote down in the previous experiment becomes the roadmap for this experiment. In this experiment, go through one EHP with a spaceholder each day until you have gone through all of the EHPs on your list. (You can make a request for spaceholders in the EHP Collaboration group on Telegram.)

When you have completed all the EHPs on your list, immediately start a new list, adding new emotions as they come as gateways for your next EHP.

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This Experiment is worth 3 Matrix Points.

Where did Brain Drugs come from? Where do they lead? If you are asking yourself these questions, you are not the first. In his book, Anatomy of an Epidemic: Magic Bullets, Psychiatric Drugs, and the Astonishing Rise of Mental Illness in America, science and history writer Robert Whittaker unfolds the history of Brain Drugs. One of the most startling revelations of the book is that over the long term, the outcomes of each class of Brain Drug is an exacerbation of the very illnesses they purport to treat.

Read this book from cover to cover. Feel the rage, fear, and sadness. Then use your feelings to write an article about the book, sharing discoveries, learnings, and about your own story.

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This Experiment is worth 3 Matrix Points.

You may have been given a diagnosis by a medical professional. You may have clung to that diagnosis as your primary or one of your primary identities. For instance, you may wear the identity of a person with bipolar, a person with anxiety, a person with schizophrenia, a person with unipolar depression. This experiment is about shedding that identity and shifting to a new one.

For two weeks, drop the identity of being a person who has any of the above diagnoses and instead, shift into the identity of a Emotional Researcher or a Feelings Quester or a Heart Adventurer. The moment you wake up, declare to yourself, "I am a Feelings Quester." When you take your pill, consciously acknowledge, "I am taking this pill as part of my ongoing research into the nature of my heart. What does it do? What difference does it make? I am looking for answers."

When you walk down the street, step into the postures, adopt the gestures, speak with the intonations of a Emotional Researcher or Feelings Quester or Heart Adventurer. The moment you notice that you have slipped back into the identity of your diagnosis, stand up and spin around or click your heels together, and immediately redeclare yourself as the identity you have recently adopted.

At the end of the two weeks of practice, ask yourself: "Does this new identity give me more Possibility in my life?"

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This Experiment is worth 1 Matrix Point.

For one week, carry four stones in your pocket. Make sure the stones are distinct enough that you cannot possibly confuse one stone for another. Assign each of the stones to one of the four feelings (anger, sadness, fear, joy).

Then, throughout the course of the week, at least one time each day, but preferably multiple times, take the stones out of your pocket one at a time at random. When you pull the stone for anger out, close your eyes, navigate to your anger, and say aloud to yourself or someone else: "I feel angry because..." When you pull the stone out for fear, close your eyes, navigate to your fear, and say aloud to yourself or someone else: "I feel afraid because..."

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This Experiment is worth 1 Matrix Point.

A common Survival Strategy you may have employed as a child trying to cope with chaos or expectations or parents who had never been through Authentic Adulthood Initiations was to install Energetic Blocks. Energetic Blocks come in various forms, from pieces of old decisions to Mind Machines to pieces of energetic hardwire soldered to your Energetic Body.

The decision to start on Brain Drugs may have been accompanied by a decision to install an Energetic Block. This could be a block around feeling your feelings, a block around experiencing your own Authority, a block around your heart.

In your next EHP, when the spaceholder asks, "What can I do for you?" say, "When I decided to begin on Brain Drugs, I installed an energetic block. I do not know consciously what that block was, but I want to find out what it was and heal it." With that intention, allow the process to go wherever the process goes.

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This Experiment is worth 1 Matrix Point.

One reason you may have started taking Brain Drugs is that you were unconsciously mixing your Emotions. When Emotions and Feelings are unmixed, their energy and information can be used respectively for taking action in the present moment or healing wounds from the past. When Emotions are mixed, the energy and information is garbled and unusable. For instance, if you mix the GO energy of anger and the SLOW DOWN energy of sadness, you get a strained and pained experience called resignation or depression. If you mix your sadness with your fear, you get the experience of despair or isolation. If you mix fear and anger, you get aggressivity and hysteria.

The only way out of these experiences of recurring depression, resignation, despair, isolation, and the other combinations of mixed emotions is to ruthlessly unmix. Your first step in unmixing is to discover what emotions you are mixing, and then ask a spaceholder (you can make a request for spaceholders in the EHP Collaboration group) to hold space for you to unmix those emotions. And that is the experiment.

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This Experiment is worth 1 Matrix Point.

How many times have you gone into the pharmacy to pick up your prescription? How many times have you gone into the pharmacy and lowered your numbness bar enough to actually feel what that experience is like for you?

In this experiment, plan a trip to your local pharmacy, or wait until it is time to pick up your prescription, and then go to your local pharmacy. Before entering the pharmacy, adjust your Feelings Detector so that you can feel even the subtlest of emotional experiences, all the way down below ten percent. Then, notice exactly how you feel in each moment during your time at the pharmacy.

• How do you feel as you walk through the door? 
• How do you feel noticing that alongside medication, this pharmacy also sells candy, potato chips, soda, energy drinks, and cigarettes? 
• How do you feel noticing the touched-up images of models for shampoo, cologne, shaving products, supplement products, etc.?
• How do you feel as you stand in line to pick up your pills?
• How do you feel about the complex exchange that happens between you and your pharmacist where you show your ID card, your insurance card, your prescription from your doctor, etc., and they hand you pills?
• How do you feel exiting the store holding this bag of pills?

The hierarchical dynamic embedded in therapist/client and psychiatrist/patient relationships can create incredible experiences of disempowerment for a client or patient. Healing this dynamic and becoming empowered mean rediscovering yourself as a spaceholder.

After going through a few experiences of having space held for you in an Emotional Healing Process (EHP), you are already equipped to step into your first EHP as a spaceholder.

The next time you see someone in the Emotional Healing Process (EHP) Collaboration Group on Telegram ask for an EHP, volunteer yourself as a spaceholder. You can let them know it is your first time holding space and even ask for a co-spaceholder if you want. The point is that you go through the experience of holding space for another person in a non-hierarchical setting.

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This Experiment is worth 1 Matrix Point.

Commercials and advertisements of every sort are designed to capture your Attention. When they have your Attention, they have your Center. When they have your Center, they have your wallet.

For this experiment, you will start by entering First Position and becoming Centered, Grounded, and Bubbled. Next, you will watch at least 10 commercials from pharmaceutical companies. As you watch each commercial, notice exactly what in the commercial causes you to compromise First Position. Are there particular phrases that hook you? Does the colorful imagery of a better life fill you with yearning? How does the commercial manipulate you into believing that this pill will give you what you are looking for? Each time you find that you have become snapped into the story of the commercial, identify what snapped you, and then use your anger to return to First Position.

Some commercials are listed below. It is a good idea to watch at least one commercial for a medication that you actually take:

• Zoloft / Sertraline
• Prozac / Fluoxetine
• Abilify
• Cymbalta
• Latuda
• Fanapt
• Seroquel XR

Stigmas around 'mental illness' mean that people do not often share about the fact that they are taking Brain Drugs, what drugs they are on, how they feel about being on those drugs, etc. This experiment is about beginning that conversation. You can open that conversation by sharing about the experiments you are starting with your medication journey.

For one week, carry inside you the intention of speaking with people who are on Brain Drugs. This does not necessarily mean that you walk up to strangers and friends and ask, "Are you taking Brain Drugs?" Rather, hold this intention firmly in you when you enter conversations. Then, when people ask how you are and what you have been up to lately, share with them, "I have been taking a Brain Drug for a while. Lately, I have been doing experiments to find out more about myself on that Brain Drug. The experiment I am doing this week is breaking down the stigma that keeps me and other people from openly connecting about Brain Drugs."

Allow E.C.C.O. to take the conversation from there.

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This Experiment is worth 1 Matrix Point.

Your Team is already bigger than you think. One place you already have a team that you may not have realized is in the people who have gone before you in getting off of Brain Drugs.

The website SurvivingAntidepressants.Org is a message board and forum of people coming off of all kinds of Brain Drugs. The site is searchable for best practices, research, and recommendations for coming off of specific Brain Drugs as well as more general information, anecdotal reports, and community support.

For this experiment, go to SurvivingAntidepressants.Org, and do the following:

• Set up a free account.
• Introduce yourself in the section for Introductions.
• Read the section on tapering.
• Read 10 articles or posts connected to the Brain Drug or Drugs that you are coming off.

You are bigger than your diagnosis, but you might not see that. You might have stories about yourself that you are broken, worthless, cannot contribute anything to the world, etc. You might not realize that beyond your diagnosis, you also have a Being. This experiment is about getting your Being appreciated.

Over the course of the next seven days, ask seven different people to join you in the experiment of helping you give your Being appreciation. Each day, sit down with one of these people either in person or over the phone, set a timer for six minutes, and ask the person to tell you what they appreciate about your Being.

It will be helpful for your people to remember that appreciating your Being is not about appreciating your Doing (your actions) or your Having (what you possess). Appreciating your Being is about appreciating what you are. What walks into the room when you walk into the room.

After you complete this seven day experiment, write a two or three page article about describing the experiment and what you discovered.

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This Experiment is worth 1 Matrix Point.

If you grew up in Modern Culture with parents who grew up in Modern Culture, then you probably have not received enough touch or holding in your life. Even if you have received plenty of touch and holding, this experiment is probably still relevant for you.

For three months, two times a week, arrange to trade holdings with a partner. Make sure to select partners who are the same sex as you (men with men, women with women), to avoid making the Holdings a space of unconscious sexual energy exchange.

When you meet, your partner will hold you first for 20 minutes. After the 20 minutes are finished, you switch directions with you holding your partner for 20 minutes.

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This Experiment is worth 3 Matrix Points.

There is a Fantasy World in Modern Culture about Feeling 'Good.' This Fantasy World is visible in commercials and advertisements for Brain Drugs. It also might have been present in promises your doctor or psychiatrist or psychotherapist made to you about what you would experience when you finally started taking Brain Drugs.

For this experiment, take a piece of paper and write down everything that comprises your Fantasy World about finally feeling 'good:'

• What does feeling 'good' mean for you?
• Does it mean you no longer feel sadness, anger, fear, or joy?
• Does it mean you are numb?
• Who and what will you be and be like when you finally feel 'good?'
• What kind of people, places, and things will be in your life when you finally feel 'good?'
• When you will you be able to do then that you are unable to do now?
• When you feel 'good,' will you finally be normal?

Brain Drugs hide or mask a variety of symptoms. As you begin to come off Brain Drugs, these symptoms (along with a slew of withdrawal symptoms) may emerge or reemerge in extreme and unpredictable ways. One way these symptoms may manifest is in the form of Trigger Sentences that you tell yourself. These Trigger Sentences can include things like:

• I am not strong enough.
• I am too weak to even ask for the help I need.
• I may as well be dead.
• What is the point of anything?
• There is something wrong with me.
• I am broken.

These Trigger Sentences are like dinner bells that announce to hungry energetic entities: "Come on over and feast on me! The Cafe is open!" The signs that your cafe is open include inexplicably low energy, difficulty getting out of bed, terror of people and of the world, terror of leaving your room.

The only thing to do here is close your cafe. The process for this is outlined in detail in SPARK 135. Do the first and second steps of this SPARK thoroughly. Then in Step 3, become a Trigger Hunter and do not let your guard down no matter what. Anytime you realize a Trigger Sentence is present again and entities are knocking at the door of your Cafe, whip out your arsenal of bokkens, gatling guns, flame throwers, and fists and scatter the entities with the lethality and fierceness of your roaring rage.

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This Experiment is worth 1 Matrix Point.

If you are taking Brain Drugs, it is likely that at some point, you gave your authority away. You might have given it away to it away to a psychiatrist, a psychotherapist, a parental figure, a doctor, a prescriber. You might have given it away to a compelling advertisement from a pharmaceutical company (like this one) or to social pressures.

In this experiment, you go through a process to take back your authority. The process goes like this:

1. Ask one, two, or three spaceholders to hold space for you to go through this process.
2. To begin the process, close your eyes, and go back to the time in your life just before you decided to start taking Brain Drugs. What was happening? Were you suicidal and hopeless? Were you unable to get out of bed? Were you an energetic child with concerned parents? What were you feeling about life? About yourself? About your condition? Share all of this with your spaceholders. Let it be as loud and messy as it needs to be.
3. Go to the moment when you gave your authority away—when you said "yes" to taking pills. Remember the exact conversation and who it was with. Remember how you felt as it was happening—the joy or dismay or mixture of emotions. Remember exactly what aspect of your authority you gave away. Was it your authority to choose for yourself? Your authority about what is good for your body and what is not? Did you give your authority away to the 'expert' and abandon your own clarity about what you wanted and what you did not want? Share all of this with your spaceholders.
4. Now, using your Clicker, declare in front of you the person or institution to which you gave your authority away. Now speak to this person or institution, saying succinctly what happened. Something like, "When I was 27, I was struggling with depression. I did not know what to do. I decided to give my authority away to you as an expert about emotions. I chose to do exactly what you told me I should do, including identifying with my diagnosis as a depressed person and taking medication." Next, using your anger, say, "I have learned a lot since then, and I have changed my mind about giving my authority away." Finally, using the full force of your anger, take your authority back by declaring it so. Declare what you have authority over. "I take back my authority! I take back my authority about what I do or do not with my body! I take back my authority as a researcher! I am a researcher now. I no longer give away my authority, not even to experts. I choose!"
   
   Let this part of the process be loud and big. Ask for feedback from the spaceholders about how you can make this action of taking your authority back even clearer. Remember, this process is not about revenge or hatred or blame. It is about you taking responsibility for your authority.
5. When you are complete, thank your spaceholders and allow the process to come to a close.

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This Experiment is worth 2 Matrix Points.